My Creativenesssss.

So I've decided I need about $905845252058 to spend on the kids. I have a new love for Etsy <3 Every time I go to the site my creative-blood starts to flowing and my bank account starts to shiver. haha:)  I mean look at these outfits....

Now why can't I do something like this? Well, I don't really know if I can't...I have never tried. But I think I'm going to start:) Once we get back from our family vacation to Orlando and don't have to pinch every penny we find *ahem, Douglas*, then I might start a few new hobbies:)

Oh and totally random, but if I don't type it now, I will forget. You know me.... :) Anyways, I'm in a contest on Facebook to win a package from a local photographer (who is awesome) for wedding pictures!! I have been saying for 3 years that I wish we would have spent money on a wedding photographer and now is my chance to get those pics! All you have to do is go on Facebook and "like" The Wedding Divas page. Then "like" my story on their wall! The more "likes" I get, the better! (Right now I think I'm the only one entered though lol). AND you can see my gorgeous Sister-in-law's (Aimee Loeffel) Bridal Pictures! :)

Ok, back on topic. I love doing creative stuff like painting, decorating, scrapbook, etc. But I would LOVE to learn how to sew! So I think I'm gonna save up my money and get a nice little sewing machine. I would love to maybe sell the things I make as a side job. I want to be able to make all sorts of goodies! Like tutus, diaper bags, pillowcase dresses, hair bows, outfits, and all kinds of stuff!! I know if I put my mind to it, I can make it:)

I thought this was really neat. A personalized initial letter. Very unique!

 

I love etsy. Did I mention that? 

  

The Initial Letter can be found here.  http://www.etsy.com/listing/54100109/custom-personalized-initial-letter   So who's gonna buy my stuff once I start making it?! :) Any takers?

Catching Up

I haven't posted in awhile...and I'm not really sure why I haven't. Busy? Maybe. Sick kids? Yes:(  Tired? Always lol.

We went to Destin,FL for the weekend a couple of weeks ago for my sister-in-laws wedding. Kenzie was the flower girl:) She was beautiful. Everything was beautiful!

How can one little girl be so precious?

 I love the beach:) All your worries seem to just melt away while you are there. To me it does anyways. Oh, and Tucker tried to eat sand so we didn't let him do much "beaching" while we were there...

I applied for my FASFA for school. I'm not positive as to what I want to do with my education, but I DO know that I want some sort of education. I don't want to tell my kids when they are older that mommy was too lazy to finish college. I'm not gonna do that. I'm going to graduate. For something. Probably something medical...but I'm still undecided. But I've taken the first step in making a better life for my family, so I'm pretty proud of that:)

We have to move. Again. Our landlord wants to sell this house and our credit isn't good enough to buy a house right now. It's not bad, it's just not good enough.  I'm so sick of moving. I hate it. I hate not having a stable house. I hate not being able to decorate or do things with the house because we don't ever know how long we can stay there. I want a home. For my kids. For my family. I just hope something good happens soon for us.

Who Am I?

I have so much to say. But the words just aren't coming to me... Today has been awful. The rain doesn't help much. I think I have cried as much as it has rained. I love my life. But I think I'm ruining it. I don't know what has happened to me over the last 3 years. Yes, I've had 2 kids, got married, and moved out into the real world. But what has made me feel this way? Its like something dark has consumed me on the inside. I have no patience. Everything makes me mad. Some days I'm just sad. I want to scream at the top of my lungs instead of talking calmly. I don't like who I am now, but I don't know how to change back to the sweet, care free, outgoing me. Where is that person?? And how do I get this blackness out of me?? I think I know the answer, but for some reason, the devil has that grip on me. And its a hard grip.

ugh. I'm hoping this girl's night will help relieve some stress. Today has sucked.

Rambling....

I heard this on some talk show today and it really hit a note with me. They were talking about how so many women think at least one negative thing per day about their body. The host of the talk show said "We call it abuse when a spouse says hurtful things to a woman, but a woman thinks it's okay to say those things to herself?"
Wow. I never really thought of it like that. Makes me think a little more about what I think/say about myself.

On another note: both of my kiddos went to bed at 7:30 tonight lol. They were worn out! I'm so blessed to have well-behaved, smart children!  I am just amazed at how under developed most of children are. Most of it probably isn't their fault, it's the parents. And that's just sad. Working at a daycare, I see a lot of stuff that makes me want to smack some people in the face. UGHHH!! But it makes me more and more thankful that Kenzie has the intellect of a 5 year old and that Tucker is even on a 12-18 month level in development!! I'm so blessed! :) I love my sweet babies more than anything in this world!!