The Van and Gaga!!

Got my mini-van today! Its awesome:) Yep. Awesome! There is so much room its not even funny. Plus it came with a pretty bad ace CD player! haha! My mom still can't believe I got one. Neither can my brother. LOL!

My best friend, Raven, got me a late birthday present.....TICKETS TO SEE LADY GAGA  IN NASHVILLE!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sooooooooooo excited!!!!!!! :) I love her!!!! (Raven and Gaga of course lol)  Oh boy:) We are gonna have so much fun. Oh, and she also made some fire roast today! Yep, she is pretty awesome!

Well, long day with 5 kids...just had a long, hot, bubble bath:) Now "me" time!
P.S - Is Facebook acting retarded for anybody else??? I can't do ANYTHING! It won't even let me post a status! I'm hoping it lets me post this though lol

*tear* I'm growing up!!

Sometimes, it sucks to be wrong. It sucks even worse when you are used to always being right. hehe:) That being said, I'm getting a mini-van.
Yep.
Me.
Lauren Kristen Cupples Loeffel.
Is getting a van.
Buy you know what? I like the fact that I'm beginning not to care what people think of me! I know I should have never cared in the first place, but growing up, I have realized what is more important. My family. I love 'em. So I am gonna rock the mini van, and I'm gonna rock it hard:) But like my sweet husband said, I would look good driving anything:) lmao! I love him!

I also like the fact that I am accepting my fate. Here I am, 22 years old. I should be in my dorm room in Knoxville, studying for a big test in my 4th year of college or getting ready in a cute cocktail dress for a sorority party. Yet, here I am, wiping boogers, giving baths, cooking, cleaning, paying bills, driving a mini van with not one, but 2 car seats, wearing a wedding ring, and trying to invent a cure for stretch marks. And I'm loving every minute of it! :) Now, I'm not saying I'm a fuddy duddy, sit at home all the time, kind of momma. I am still 22 ya know. So I still love any reason to get dressed up to get out of the house:) I don't care if its to the local Olive Garden or to downtown Nashville. A woman needs to get out of the house! A woman needs girl friends! A woman needs a man to spoil her! Although I'm still working on that last one.....nah, I take that back; Dougie does spoil me. Just not in the way I want to be spoiled lol:) I love him still. I love him a lots:)

Update on Tucker man!

Today has been a super LONG day. Me, Doug, and the kids, left the house at 5AM this morning to head to Memphis for Tucker's MRI. The instructions given to me when we made this appointment were to not give him anything to eat/drink for 8 hours prior to the procedure. We were supposed to be at LeBonhuer at 7:30AM so they can begin the MRI at 8AM.  Well.....we hit Memphis traffic at 7:15, making us a little late and I HATE being late. We finally make it there and go to the Neurology Department. Wrong. We were supposed to be in the Radiology Department. We get back on the elevator, finally making it to where we needed to be at 8AM. They call us back to the "prep" room only to be told that in THEIR computer, we weren't scheduled for the MRI until 10:30..  WHAT??!! My poor baby can't eat anything for ANOTHER 2 hours on top of the 8 he already couldn't eat??!!! Oh. No. They. Didn't.

But, it turns out, one child that was ahead of us for the MRI was too sick to go through with it. So it bumped Tucker up to getting his done quicker than we thought!

BUT....they had to put him to sleep because he is so young and they needed to put an IV in him in case he had a seizure during the MRI. I told the nurse that Tucker has really small veins, like me, and that they always have trouble finding one to use. This stupid nurse tells me to hold his legs down while her and the other nurse find a vein. She looks for like 0.4 seconds on this hand then sticks a needle in it. And was wiggling it around!!!!! Oh I was sick. Literally. The room started spinning. Tucker was screaming bloody murder (and I don't blame him). Doug took over just in time. I almost passed out. Why would you do that to a baby?? After I JUST told you he had small veins!!! So as I sat in the chair beside Kenzie getting my breath back and crying, Doug held Tucker down while they stuck him 3 more times. Yes, three. Once in each food and one on the other hand. Doug finally told them to quit. She said she would let the doctor do it. Thanks. Idiot. 
They took Tucker back to the anesthesiologist to finish his IV. Thankfully, this doctor has a heart and gave him "the gas" before they stuck him again. So he didn't feel that one, thank goodness. I thought I was gonna have to hurt somebody. It only took about 45 minutes to complete the MRI. When they let me come back to the recovery room, Tuck was out of it lol. He was so funny. But he did great!

We finally met with his Neurologist at around 11AM. He looked at the MRI results and all was great! Nothing was abnormal. He diagnosed him with having Idiopathic seizures. They are the most common type and they have no known causes. He is most likely to outgrow them by the age of 2, if not before. He will continue to take his medicine for 2 more years. We go back every 6 months for a checkup to see if we need to up his dosages. That's why he had a "general seizure" a couple of weeks ago; because he had hit a growth spurt and the dosage he was taking just wasn't strong enough for him anymore. So we are gonna keep an eye out for that.

Here is a link explaining more about Idiopathic Seizures     CLICK HERE

I wanted to thank everyone for praying for us! It means so much to me and my family that so many people are thinking of Tucker and us in these times! I'm just so thankful for a healthy baby boy. I know it could be worse, that's why I'm counting my blessings. My sweet little family means everything to me!

Answers and Prayers

Tomorrow morning me, Doug, and the kids will be heading to Le Bonheur Children's Hospital in Memphis to do an MRI on Tucker. My poor baby man has to be put to sleep! I'm a little worried. But, I know this will hopefully give us some answers as to why he is having seizures! The worst feeling in the world is NOT knowing. I'm praying to God that everything goes OK tomorrow and to get some answers soon. My favorite quote of all time is "Everything happens for a reason". And I truly believe that. God will never hand me anything He knows I can't overcome! Little Tucker is a blessing to my life and others lives. He was brought to this earth for a reason:)

Oh, by the way. Tucker, who is 7 months old, has learned to say "momma", crawl, pull up, and say "bababa" all in one week!! Next week he will be talking in sentences and walking! He is growing up too fast! My sweet little man:)

boo for me. :(

It sucks that my self confidence does not even exist anymore. It's to the point where I can't even have fun. When I get all "dolled" up to go somewhere, I feel really pretty. And then, when I see someone who is prettier or skinnier than me, I just sink a little lower inside. I want my body back. But more importantly, I want my self confidence back. I want to feel the way I felt when I was 18. I want to walk in a room and own it. I want to meet new people without being jealous. I want to shop where I want to shop. I want my clothes to look good on me. I want to feel comfortable in a bathing suit. I want my belly button ring back. I want to dance like no one is watching on the dance floor. I want to sing my heart out on stage. I want to walk down the street and not worry if people are making fun of the way I look. I want to not even worry what people think of me. I want. I want. I want.

ugh.

long day. [with some laughs]

Memphis with my wonderful mother-in-law (and I'm not being sarcastic lol). I'm very blessed to NOT have the "evil/annoying" mother-in-law that everyone dreads having. Nope. I got lucky:) I consider her as a mother! She is such an awesome grandmother to my kids and I don't know what I would do without her! 

Back to the subject lol. We went to Memphis today with the kids for Kenzie's dermatologist appointment. Now, don't ask me why we had to drive all the way to Memphis for this because I still do not know - the bumps on Kenzie's arms and legs are very common but not curable. Ok. Thanks for that info that I probably could have googled. Oh well. It got me out of the house and had a fun time with the kids:) We went to the mall to shop for me a dress to wear to Nashville, only to become super depressed after going to 3 stores. Boo for being fat. 

And some people are STILL a laughing stock of Facebook but doesn't seem to notice!! lol! Its hilarious:) I'm SOOO glad I got to witness some stuff today. I was cracking UP! :) Like I said, I love my mother-in-law!! 

Now I'm fixing to head to bed. Got my bags packed for tomorrow and heading out in the morning for Nashville for my sister-in-law's bachelor/bachelorette party:) SUPER excited!!!

Sleepless Night.

No. sleep. last. night.....zzzzzzzzzzzz.
I'm so tired. Kenzie had diarreah last night all in my bed. Nice. Then she had to puke. Even nicer. So I had to clean her up, give her some medicine, and put the sheets and clothes in the washer. It STUNK. Bad. She seems ok this morning though. Bless her heart.

Doug called me this morning and wanted the VIN# to the vehicle I am trying to get. Our bank is trying to get us Pre-Approved!! Oh please Lord let me get this car!!!!! Please Please PLEASE!!!