Fall Love

We got some family pictures made yesterday afternoon. I thought we were going to blow away with the crazy wind we were having! But they turned out really good!

*sigh*

These are just a few of them. Blogger was being mean and wouldn't let me put anymore on here :( Maybe later. :)

Anywho. I've been thinking a lot lately. (I know, I know...don't hurt yourself, Lauren). I'm happy with my life. Yes, some things could be better. And they WILL! My husband works so hard for his family. He has a good, steady job (although I DO complain about the hours...it could be worse), and he's working his way up the company! I (God willing) will be starting school in January for teaching. I've decided that's what I want to do. Be a teacher. It will be best for my family and I know I will love doing it! And I will get to be creative everyday!! :)

The next 5 years are going to be a busy 5 years. We are working on bettering our credit score because we want to buy a house after I graduate. And I am SO excited about it! And I'm so proud of how we are handling it. Most people jump in and buy something that they can't afford in the first place. But we are taking the slow, yet productive route. My husband is so good at handling money. Well, we both are actually. I never buy anything without thinking it over 500 times lol. And if we don't have the money to do something this week, we don't do it. Point blank. We had it really rough when we first moved in together but we have come a LONG way and we always say that we will NEVER go back to living like that. I hate asking for help/money. Hate it. We are adults. It shouldn't be that way. So unless something major comes up (like a house fire......) I will try to never ask for financial help.

Next.

I know some of you have read where I'm going to start losing weight/getting into shape. Well, I'm starting today!! I made my own workout routine. I'm not really "dieting" per say. I'm just going to try to eat healthier when I can and cut back on sweets and sodas....Lord help me lol. I might hurt somebody for a Dr.Pepper.

Pinteresting Wednesday!!

 

My dream home! It doesn’t even have to be that huge…I just LOVE where it is!

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I love Pinterest…but now when I make something crafty, I don’t feel as awesome because everybody and their momma (literally) will know I made if from Pinterest LOL.

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I NEED THIS IN MY CLOSET RIGHT NOW!!  please :)

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When I pray…

 

When I pray, I pray for my children and my husband. I pray that God will watch over them and keep them safe from harm. I thank God for bringing them into my life. I thank God for the blessings he has given me, even though I need to do this more often. I pray for my family and friends and how I’m so blessed to have them. And I pray that God will help me be a better mother and wife.

But what I can’t pray for, what I feel I’m not worthy of praying for, is me. I feel like I am a lost cause. I don’t deserve the things that God has provided for me because I fall to temptations too easily. I always want to be better, but it’s so hard for me.  I can’t keep asking for forgiveness when I do the same wrong things over and over again.

And I’m still so confused with everything. I don’t know where I belong (as far as a church goes) and I don’t know nearly as much about the Bible as I should. When I do go to church, I feel ashamed. I feel that I am not worthy enough to stand in front of the cross.

I’m just going to continue to pray.

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Catch Up

Some pictures from Halloween-

Pretty sure I had the most handsome Sheriff in town, along with the most PURRRRRfect Kitty Cat. 

Yeah, I just did that =

Ready for the weekend!

Let me just start out by saying I LOVE Halloween! So to say I am excited for this weekend would be an understatement.

We bought the kids’ costumes at Wal-Mart. Kenzie is going to be a “cat” and Tucker is going to be a cowboy sheriff = Cute, huh??

Doug and I had to be creative. But that’s okay, I would rather be semi-original anyways lol.

Doug is going to go as Less Grosman off of Tropic Thunder. You know, Tom Cruise’s alter ego?

It’s pretty funny actually. 

Here are some hints as to what I’m going to be…

Figured it out yet? LOL  

 

LOL yup… Cookie Monster! Or at least, my own version of a cookie monster =

I even have blue eyelashes. I might even walk around with a box of Chips-Ahoy and violently eat them LOL!

We will be going to the yearly Halloween party Saturday night. It will be at my SIL’s this year.

She asked me to bring a dessert and I’m torn between cake balls and these heavenly goodies…

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Baked Smore’s……

Or maybe I will make both.. LOL! =

Oh, and I know this is super simple and you probably already know about it, BUT this is my drink of choice for parties.

#1) It’s super cheap.

#2) It’s super yummy.

Bull Frog

This is all the ingredients you need. Ever.

All you do is empty out the Mountain Dew to the top of the lable. Add Kool-Aid & shake until dissolved. (Be careful, it will fizz up. And this stuff can be MESSY!)

Once the Mountain Dew has settled down, add the Vodka to fill up the bottle again. Shake it a couple of times just to mix in the Vodka.

Pour on ice and enjoy your night =

When done right, you can’t taste the alcohol. This is a good and bad thing.

LOL!

I can’t wait to put up pics of our costumes!!!

Getting Started

Yayy for me. I’ve been sticking to a “diet” for about 4 days now = I’ve been cutting back on what I eat and I already feel better. I’m going to start exercising tomorrow.

I plan on weighing myself every Wednesday. It’s the middle of the week (duh) so I will be able to tell how much harder I need to work the rest of the week! 

Here are a few of my guides that I’ve pinned on my Get Motivated Pinterest board:

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One of my “bad habits” is sweet tea. I swear it’s my blood type. Hopefully, I can get to the point of maybe one glass a day. Or even better, none! I really need to drink more water.

So here’s to losing 60 pounds!! = Wish me luck!

Maybe I will get brave enough to post “result” pictures.

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Who I think I am…

this is my quote that pretty much sums it up

Who I Am: 

A damn good mother.

A loving wife

A book lover.

Sweet tea, Dr.Pepper, coffee addict.

Smart.

A best friend.

Who I Think I Am:

A big slob who stays at home all the time.

Shy.

Lost in the world.

Someone who will never figure out what to do with my life.

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All of my friends are going out this weekend. At first I didn’t want to go. Hubbs didn’t understand why. I tried using the “I’m tired” excuse, but he wasn’t buying that. Before I could open my mouth with another excuse he says, “If you don’t have anything to wear, I will buy you something.” Dang it. Can’t use that one either…

And then I just start crying. 

“I’m fat”.

………

Now, being the sweet husband (most of the time haha) that he is, he tries to calm me down. But in the process of that, he gets mad. He gets mad because he says I AM not fat, I’m just not as small as I used to be. And he tells me I am beautiful.

I’ve never really felt pretty except for when I was feeling pretty for the wrong reasons.

I was always so hard on myself for anything. My weight; my looks; my clothes. Even when I was a cheerleader, I always felt huge. And looking back now, I was NOT fat at ALL.

Then and Now

Obviously, I was retarded.

I’m still very hard on myself. I hate being in pictures. I hate looking in the mirror. I hate finding something to wear.

My self esteem is sad. Before I had kids, I loved meeting new people. I loved dancing. I loved going out. Now, I have to have a few (or 6) drinks before I hit the dance floor lol. 

Hubbs tells me that my idea of beauty is superficial. I get my ideal body from Victoria Secret models. He says that’s not real life. Not everyone CAN look like that and he doesn’t care if I ever look like that. He doesn’t put lies in my head though…he does tell me he knows I’m slightly overweight but I’m not HUGE like I think I am. 

But I’m not just gonna sit around and mope. I’m gonna do something about it. I’ve been cutting back on what I eat for the past couple of days. I feel better not eating a ton of food for dinner. Now if only I could get some energy & get over my hatred for sweat and start to exercise! I need to lose 60 pounds to be in a healthy BMI for my height. 

Has anyone else lost a significant amount of weight before? How did you do it? Any yummy healthy snacks or recipes?

Also, motivation tips would be nice. Me and chocolate have this thing…and I need to let go. LOL!