I suck at thinking of titles:/

30 Days of Truth - Day 9: Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.

Probably ALL of my high school friends (give or take one or two of them...). After we graduated, I didn't ever see anybody except for the ones I stayed close with. Then after I got pregnant with Kenzie, the number of friends got smaller. I guess I never wanted to let go of my high school years, but everyone has to! It's part of life. And I wish my "friends" would have stayed friends. Even though I have children now, I'm pretty much the same Lauren; just the upgraded version:)

100 Days Photo Challenge

Day 3 - A Favorite book that you own

Sad to say, I don't own that many books. I love to read though! I think I'm going to make it a new goal of mine to find time to read. 

This was my favorite out of the series. Gotta love Love Triangles lol:)

Hell & Happiness & Easter..lol

30 Days of Truth - Day 7: Someone who has made your life hell.

I don't want to say any names or try not to give any clues on this one. But this person made my life a living hell. And I blame every bad thing that happened to me from the time I met this person on him or her. I know that sounds ridiculous and childish but that's how I look at it. There is always this thought in the back of mind thinking "Why didn't you THINK about ME before doing that!". I didn't understand how one person could turn my life around like that. I hated that time. And I hated what it did to a relationship. I probably can't blame everything on this person though, because in the end it was my decision to do the things I did. But if this someone had never been a part of my life, I wouldn't have had to make those decisions. I will never forget it and I'm emotionally scarred from it.

100 Day Picture Challenge

Day 2 : A picture that makes you happy:)

[since this is MY blog & I can do what I want, I'm adding more than one picture:) lol]

Wedding Day <3

The first time holding Miss Kenzie Lane :)

The first time holding my big boy, Tucker man:)

Every time I see this picture I have to smile:)

Kenzie meeting Tucker for the first time. *tear*

Well, Happy Easter everyone! I hope ya'll had an awesome egg-hunting, chocolate candy eating, family spending day:) The kids both got Easter baskets from the Easter bunny this morning. Then we went to my Nana's for an AMAZING lunch. And yes, I cheated on my diet today...that was going to be a given. You can't go to Nana's and not eat the yummy goodness of food she cooks. It's a rule. A rule that shall never be broken:)  Then Kenzie hunted for eggs with her cousins, who are too old to be Easter Egg hunting lol. But they had fun. Kenzie ate about 14 pounds of chocolate today...that might be the reason she's gone through one and a half movies so far before bed......uhh..

*Day 7 of 30DoT* && a new photo challenge! :)

Day 7 of 30 Days of Truth :  Someone who has made your life worth living.

Well, in my case, it is more than one person; Two to be exact:) My little munchkins. My sweet Princess and my angel man:) Kenzie Lane & Tucker James make give so much more meaning to my life then I thought anything or anyone could. It was love at first sight with both of them. Gah, they are just perfect to me! (But who's kid's aren't in their parent's eyes lol). They make me want to be a better person and they are ALWAYS a big part in all the decisions I make, whether big or small. They changed my life for the better and even though sometimes I feel like ripping my hair off and running away, I wouldn't trade it for the world. I love my babies<3

100 Day Photo Challenge

*Day 1 - A picture of yourself*

(Its supposed to be a picture of yourself on the day you start the challenge but I look a hot mess right now so I changed it. Shoot me.) 

*Day 5* My Worst Nightmare

q. Something you hope you never have to do.

a. I knew what I was going to write about as soon as I saw this. I hope I NEVER EVER EVER have to bury my children. Ever. I don't think I would have the strength to ever get over something as traumatic as that. I know deep in my heart, that I will never have that kind of strength, to get up and walk away from that. These past couple of weeks, all I have heard about is these little children dying and it breaks my heart. I can't imagine. I don't want to imagine. That is my worst nightmare. I hope I never have to plan Kenzie or Tucker's funeral. I might as well plan mine in the process. I never knew anyone personally who had lost their child, until one of my best friends died in 2009. Her mother was so strong during everything. She is still strong. I have so much respect for her because I know I could never have the strength that she has.

-My heart and prayers go out to all the families of the lost loved ones (especially the children). May God grant them strength.

Day 5 - Hope for the Future

q. Something you hope to do in your life

a. Well this one is a bit easier than the last couple of days lol. There are a lot of things I hope to do in my life but I'm going to narrow it down to one thing for today.
I would love to be able to retire and move by the water. I say I would love to retire because you just never know with this crappy economy:/ I don't want to work my entire life. And I don't care what water I move by lol...The river, the ocean, a creek. I would just love to be able to walk out on my back porch and see water. I love it.

Day 4 - I forgive you.

q. Something you have to forgive someone for.

a. This one is a real toughy for me because I am not ready to forgive "those" who need to be forgiven. It's something I like to put in the back of my mind and not think about or talk about. There is more than one person I probably need to forgive for doing something to me or hurting me. I just don't have the strength to let it all out. Blahhhh. :/

Day 3 - Forgivness.

q. Something you have to forgive yourself for.

a. Everything in my past. The stupid decisions I made. I have to forgive myself for those things, even though they still haunt me. There's not even a specific thing I can think of because there were SO many stupid decisions made in my life. But, there is no one to blame but myself. Therefore I have to forgive myself. And I DO forgive myself, because I know that is NOT who I am and my past should NOT sum up who I am or who I have become. One can only grow stronger from the mistakes they have made. I forgive myself because I KNOW I am not that same person. And I AM stronger, not only for myself, but for my two beautiful children.


ps. This 30 Days of Truth crap is harder than I thought! lol

*Day 2* Love...

q. Something you love about yourself.

a. Hmmmm. As sad as this sounds, day 1 was easier for me. But here goes nothing...I love my creativeness. It usually just goes on in my head and never actually gets put to use, but I think that will come to an end soon! I love planning little parties; right down to the outfits lol. I love coming up with ideas to start a "mini business". It would be awesome to actually get to do something I LOVE and make money doing it:) I love scrapbooking and baking and decorating. I just wish I could put more use to my "gift". Someday I will. But right now, the two precious babies I have are keeping me busy as it is:)

30 Days of Truth *Day 1*

q. Something you hate about yourself.

a. Hate. That's such a strong word. BUT, if it must be used to describe something about me, I'm going to use it towards my self consciousness. I am so critical about myself. I feel like I have "let myself go" after I had kids and got married. I'm not used to this "new me". I'm not used to these "new curves"; and lumps. lol. And frankly, I don't really WANT to get used to them. I want to get rid of them! And I swear I will.
I used to light up the room with my outgoing personality. Now I like to stand aside. I am really bad about comparing myself to other girls. I hate that. I'm working on it though.

So there ya go...something I hate about myself.