My Creativenesssss.

So I've decided I need about $905845252058 to spend on the kids. I have a new love for Etsy <3 Every time I go to the site my creative-blood starts to flowing and my bank account starts to shiver. haha:)  I mean look at these outfits....

Now why can't I do something like this? Well, I don't really know if I can't...I have never tried. But I think I'm going to start:) Once we get back from our family vacation to Orlando and don't have to pinch every penny we find *ahem, Douglas*, then I might start a few new hobbies:)

Oh and totally random, but if I don't type it now, I will forget. You know me.... :) Anyways, I'm in a contest on Facebook to win a package from a local photographer (who is awesome) for wedding pictures!! I have been saying for 3 years that I wish we would have spent money on a wedding photographer and now is my chance to get those pics! All you have to do is go on Facebook and "like" The Wedding Divas page. Then "like" my story on their wall! The more "likes" I get, the better! (Right now I think I'm the only one entered though lol). AND you can see my gorgeous Sister-in-law's (Aimee Loeffel) Bridal Pictures! :)

Ok, back on topic. I love doing creative stuff like painting, decorating, scrapbook, etc. But I would LOVE to learn how to sew! So I think I'm gonna save up my money and get a nice little sewing machine. I would love to maybe sell the things I make as a side job. I want to be able to make all sorts of goodies! Like tutus, diaper bags, pillowcase dresses, hair bows, outfits, and all kinds of stuff!! I know if I put my mind to it, I can make it:)

I thought this was really neat. A personalized initial letter. Very unique!

 

I love etsy. Did I mention that? 

  

The Initial Letter can be found here.  http://www.etsy.com/listing/54100109/custom-personalized-initial-letter   So who's gonna buy my stuff once I start making it?! :) Any takers?

Catching Up

I haven't posted in awhile...and I'm not really sure why I haven't. Busy? Maybe. Sick kids? Yes:(  Tired? Always lol.

We went to Destin,FL for the weekend a couple of weeks ago for my sister-in-laws wedding. Kenzie was the flower girl:) She was beautiful. Everything was beautiful!

How can one little girl be so precious?

 I love the beach:) All your worries seem to just melt away while you are there. To me it does anyways. Oh, and Tucker tried to eat sand so we didn't let him do much "beaching" while we were there...

I applied for my FASFA for school. I'm not positive as to what I want to do with my education, but I DO know that I want some sort of education. I don't want to tell my kids when they are older that mommy was too lazy to finish college. I'm not gonna do that. I'm going to graduate. For something. Probably something medical...but I'm still undecided. But I've taken the first step in making a better life for my family, so I'm pretty proud of that:)

We have to move. Again. Our landlord wants to sell this house and our credit isn't good enough to buy a house right now. It's not bad, it's just not good enough.  I'm so sick of moving. I hate it. I hate not having a stable house. I hate not being able to decorate or do things with the house because we don't ever know how long we can stay there. I want a home. For my kids. For my family. I just hope something good happens soon for us.

Who Am I?

I have so much to say. But the words just aren't coming to me... Today has been awful. The rain doesn't help much. I think I have cried as much as it has rained. I love my life. But I think I'm ruining it. I don't know what has happened to me over the last 3 years. Yes, I've had 2 kids, got married, and moved out into the real world. But what has made me feel this way? Its like something dark has consumed me on the inside. I have no patience. Everything makes me mad. Some days I'm just sad. I want to scream at the top of my lungs instead of talking calmly. I don't like who I am now, but I don't know how to change back to the sweet, care free, outgoing me. Where is that person?? And how do I get this blackness out of me?? I think I know the answer, but for some reason, the devil has that grip on me. And its a hard grip.

ugh. I'm hoping this girl's night will help relieve some stress. Today has sucked.

Rambling....

I heard this on some talk show today and it really hit a note with me. They were talking about how so many women think at least one negative thing per day about their body. The host of the talk show said "We call it abuse when a spouse says hurtful things to a woman, but a woman thinks it's okay to say those things to herself?"
Wow. I never really thought of it like that. Makes me think a little more about what I think/say about myself.

On another note: both of my kiddos went to bed at 7:30 tonight lol. They were worn out! I'm so blessed to have well-behaved, smart children!  I am just amazed at how under developed most of children are. Most of it probably isn't their fault, it's the parents. And that's just sad. Working at a daycare, I see a lot of stuff that makes me want to smack some people in the face. UGHHH!! But it makes me more and more thankful that Kenzie has the intellect of a 5 year old and that Tucker is even on a 12-18 month level in development!! I'm so blessed! :) I love my sweet babies more than anything in this world!!

The Van and Gaga!!

Got my mini-van today! Its awesome:) Yep. Awesome! There is so much room its not even funny. Plus it came with a pretty bad ace CD player! haha! My mom still can't believe I got one. Neither can my brother. LOL!

My best friend, Raven, got me a late birthday present.....TICKETS TO SEE LADY GAGA  IN NASHVILLE!!!!!!!!!!! I'm sooooooooooo excited!!!!!!! :) I love her!!!! (Raven and Gaga of course lol)  Oh boy:) We are gonna have so much fun. Oh, and she also made some fire roast today! Yep, she is pretty awesome!

Well, long day with 5 kids...just had a long, hot, bubble bath:) Now "me" time!
P.S - Is Facebook acting retarded for anybody else??? I can't do ANYTHING! It won't even let me post a status! I'm hoping it lets me post this though lol

*tear* I'm growing up!!

Sometimes, it sucks to be wrong. It sucks even worse when you are used to always being right. hehe:) That being said, I'm getting a mini-van.
Yep.
Me.
Lauren Kristen Cupples Loeffel.
Is getting a van.
Buy you know what? I like the fact that I'm beginning not to care what people think of me! I know I should have never cared in the first place, but growing up, I have realized what is more important. My family. I love 'em. So I am gonna rock the mini van, and I'm gonna rock it hard:) But like my sweet husband said, I would look good driving anything:) lmao! I love him!

I also like the fact that I am accepting my fate. Here I am, 22 years old. I should be in my dorm room in Knoxville, studying for a big test in my 4th year of college or getting ready in a cute cocktail dress for a sorority party. Yet, here I am, wiping boogers, giving baths, cooking, cleaning, paying bills, driving a mini van with not one, but 2 car seats, wearing a wedding ring, and trying to invent a cure for stretch marks. And I'm loving every minute of it! :) Now, I'm not saying I'm a fuddy duddy, sit at home all the time, kind of momma. I am still 22 ya know. So I still love any reason to get dressed up to get out of the house:) I don't care if its to the local Olive Garden or to downtown Nashville. A woman needs to get out of the house! A woman needs girl friends! A woman needs a man to spoil her! Although I'm still working on that last one.....nah, I take that back; Dougie does spoil me. Just not in the way I want to be spoiled lol:) I love him still. I love him a lots:)

Update on Tucker man!

Today has been a super LONG day. Me, Doug, and the kids, left the house at 5AM this morning to head to Memphis for Tucker's MRI. The instructions given to me when we made this appointment were to not give him anything to eat/drink for 8 hours prior to the procedure. We were supposed to be at LeBonhuer at 7:30AM so they can begin the MRI at 8AM.  Well.....we hit Memphis traffic at 7:15, making us a little late and I HATE being late. We finally make it there and go to the Neurology Department. Wrong. We were supposed to be in the Radiology Department. We get back on the elevator, finally making it to where we needed to be at 8AM. They call us back to the "prep" room only to be told that in THEIR computer, we weren't scheduled for the MRI until 10:30..  WHAT??!! My poor baby can't eat anything for ANOTHER 2 hours on top of the 8 he already couldn't eat??!!! Oh. No. They. Didn't.

But, it turns out, one child that was ahead of us for the MRI was too sick to go through with it. So it bumped Tucker up to getting his done quicker than we thought!

BUT....they had to put him to sleep because he is so young and they needed to put an IV in him in case he had a seizure during the MRI. I told the nurse that Tucker has really small veins, like me, and that they always have trouble finding one to use. This stupid nurse tells me to hold his legs down while her and the other nurse find a vein. She looks for like 0.4 seconds on this hand then sticks a needle in it. And was wiggling it around!!!!! Oh I was sick. Literally. The room started spinning. Tucker was screaming bloody murder (and I don't blame him). Doug took over just in time. I almost passed out. Why would you do that to a baby?? After I JUST told you he had small veins!!! So as I sat in the chair beside Kenzie getting my breath back and crying, Doug held Tucker down while they stuck him 3 more times. Yes, three. Once in each food and one on the other hand. Doug finally told them to quit. She said she would let the doctor do it. Thanks. Idiot. 
They took Tucker back to the anesthesiologist to finish his IV. Thankfully, this doctor has a heart and gave him "the gas" before they stuck him again. So he didn't feel that one, thank goodness. I thought I was gonna have to hurt somebody. It only took about 45 minutes to complete the MRI. When they let me come back to the recovery room, Tuck was out of it lol. He was so funny. But he did great!

We finally met with his Neurologist at around 11AM. He looked at the MRI results and all was great! Nothing was abnormal. He diagnosed him with having Idiopathic seizures. They are the most common type and they have no known causes. He is most likely to outgrow them by the age of 2, if not before. He will continue to take his medicine for 2 more years. We go back every 6 months for a checkup to see if we need to up his dosages. That's why he had a "general seizure" a couple of weeks ago; because he had hit a growth spurt and the dosage he was taking just wasn't strong enough for him anymore. So we are gonna keep an eye out for that.

Here is a link explaining more about Idiopathic Seizures     CLICK HERE

I wanted to thank everyone for praying for us! It means so much to me and my family that so many people are thinking of Tucker and us in these times! I'm just so thankful for a healthy baby boy. I know it could be worse, that's why I'm counting my blessings. My sweet little family means everything to me!