June 17, 2013

Working On Myself.

Along with trying to eat right and get healthy for my body, I am also trying to work on becoming a better person emotionally.

I’m human. I have flaws. I switch emotions like a light switch. And since I’m a woman, those emotions are multiplied about five gazillion times. AND since I’m a mother, those emotions and hormones multiplied times infinity. In conclusion, I’m a wee bit of an emotional train wreck. And by train wreck, I mean the B word. bitch.

First of all, I would like to say I’m sorry to anyone who I’ve hurt because of my emotional craziness. Sometimes I say things that I shouldn’t say out loud. Most of the time I say those things because I’m angry. So I’m sorry for that. I’m trying to change. And in order to change, I have to look at WHY I act the way I do.

#1. I have a hard time feeling happy for people. I think most of the reason is because of jealousy. I’m jealous of the blogger who has won 56 giveaways in the past week. I’m jealous of the girls rocking all these cute boutique clothes that I can’t afford. I’m jealous of pretty much anyone who has it “easier” than I do because I want things and I want them now. Hey, I’m working on it.

#2. Sometimes people just get on my nerves and I tell them and then they don’t like me. So there’s that. I’m working on not letting my nerves “got on”.

#3. There’s a certain time of the month where I just shouldn’t be allowed to have any type of communication with the outside world. Girls, you know what I mean.


#4. Sometimes I turn into a six year old and I get mad because someone “copies” me. Like, I don’t mind when you get “ideas” from me because let’s be honest, sometimes I have these super amazing ideas. Not. But I hate when someone’s all “I love your owl tattoo! I’m gonna get one JUST LIKE IT in the same EXACT spot!!”. No, rude. No you are not. Finding “inspiration” in someone is perfectly acceptable. But copying is a no no.
This was just a made up example. I would be extremely pissed if someone actually said that to me.

So there you have it. Four reasons why I can be the big “b” word. And I’m working on it. I seriously am. I’m trying to help out other bloggers when I can, even if I get nothing from it. I’ve been keeping rude comments to myself….mostly. AND I gave a sandwich to a homeless man the other day.


I know, I know. Don’t be too shocked. Tone it down a bit girls, k?


So here’s to being nice!

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emily said...

First part of solving a problem is admitting you have one, right?!!!

I'm definitely guilty of being a big biotch sometimes/prettymuchallthetimes. I'm also guilty of holding it all in and dumping it on my poor husband. Not good!

Kudos to you for working on it!

The Pink Growl said...

This post is awesome! We all feel these things girl! I am totally guilty of them all, but #1 especially. It's hard for me not to be jealous of other people's lives who seem sooooo put together on their blog with their perfect husband and clothes and money. but just know that it's not always what it seems in their real lives. That's probably awful, but honestly it makes me feel better sometimes. Hang in there! XOXO

Krysten @ Why Girls Are Weird said...

I am SO with you on #1. It's really hard to read some blogs and not feel totally jealous. But remember, they only give you certain glimpses into their lives. Who knows what happens behind closed doors.

Christina said...

This is such a great post!
Just found your blog!
Now following. Looking forward to keeping up and getting to know you!

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ShaunaQ said...

Just found your post through the bloglovin blog hop and I'm now following you.

I think it's very commendable that you are honest and want to be a better person. I also think it's really brave to admit to feelings like jealousy. We all have our moments. Especially in blog world where everything is squeaky clean and perfect. Remember, it's only on the surface.

Speaking of tattoos, I just got one! And it's an owl just like yours! Kidding. It's a pumpkin. And it was actually a makeover. Just thought I'd share.

Anonymous said...

I love this post! And I really agree with the last one... at school I used to get sooo mad if anyone ever tried to copy me... it's not flattering, it's annoying!

Found you through the Bloglovin link up and am now following :)

J. Lenni Dorner said...

Stopping by from the Bloglovin' Collective Blog Hop.

Good for you for working on it.

Imitation is a form of flattery... so I hear, anyway.

Kristin C said...

I found you on the blogloving blog hop, and can't wait to read more. I was lol'ing and cringing at this post. I feel the same way about many of these things :)

Anonymous said...

Great post girl! I am a very emotional girl. It sucks sometimes.

Chelsea said...

It's a good step to try to work on it! I can switch to B mode in a second too... some people just irritate the heck out of me without even trying, haha.
Olive & Ivy