It sucks that my self confidence does not even exist anymore. It's to the point where I can't even have fun. When I get all "dolled" up to go somewhere, I feel really pretty. And then, when I see someone who is prettier or skinnier than me, I just sink a little lower inside. I want my body back. But more importantly, I want my self confidence back. I want to feel the way I felt when I was 18. I want to walk in a room and own it. I want to meet new people without being jealous. I want to shop where I want to shop. I want my clothes to look good on me. I want to feel comfortable in a bathing suit. I want my belly button ring back. I want to dance like no one is watching on the dance floor. I want to sing my heart out on stage. I want to walk down the street and not worry if people are making fun of the way I look. I want to not even worry what people think of me. I want. I want. I want.