Venting....since its been awhile lol

Sigh.

I'm so tired of cleaning over and over and over again. I'm tired of our bedroom becoming a "catch-all" for dirty laundry, boxes of junk, and anything else that doesn't belong. When I go to bed, I want a nice, relaxing place to go to. And when I do clean it, it lasts for about, oh, 12 hours.
I hate dishes. Hate hate hate. And if you have a dishwasher equipped with your house, I hate you too. Well, I don't necessarily hate you...I just don't like the fact that you don't have to hand wash every. single. dish.
And right now, I have a love/hate relationship with this house and living in the country. Burning trash and no central heat and air is getting on my nerves. And it's mostly the fact that we can't do anything to this (hideous) carpet and walls. I like the house, just not how it's painted, etc.

I'm tired of picking up after everyone. I am NOT a maid. Yes, I stay at home an that's my job for right now, but it gets OLD. I don't understand why it's so hard to put things where they belong. If I wasn't such a clean freak, I would go on strike. Not like that would solve anything...things would get worse.

Sigh. I think I'm done now. Just tired of the same ole same ole.

Twitter and Christmas

Ok, I know I'm late on this...but like the saying goes, "Better late than never!"(or pregnant, as Blanche would say lol)!

I'm now on twitter an have decided to try to stick with it. I need followers to keep me motivated! I'm Tennessee_Honey :) Find me. Follow me. And I will do the same!


Now onto Christmas. I'm so ready for it to be over with but I love it just the same. My husband and I have a problem...we can't stop buying for the kids. It seems like things just keep creeping into the buggy. Oh well, it could be worse I guess. :)

I have also made more cake balls than I ever wanted to in the past couple of days. And I don't even eat cake balls!!

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve. Where has the time gone?? Is it just me, or did this year fly by super fast? (this reminds me; I need to do a rewind of the year post!)

I've been busy making things other than cake balls, too. Bows!! And I love it:) [I'm on my iPhone so all the pics will be at the end of this post]

I'm so excited for the new year. There are some exciting things that will happen in 2012!

Oh, and if you haven't heard of it, you should check out portablenorthpole.tv and make a personalized video from Santa himself! Kenzie loved hers. Her expression was priceless!! I didn't bother with making Tucker one...he could care less anyways, being that he's only 17 months old haha!

Well, Merry Christmas everyone!!

Dreams

I had a very vivid dream last night...I dreamt that I was could transform myself into some kind of invisible flying, uhhh...person lol. All of my guy friends (that are obviously made up) had somehow transformed into dogs after someone threw a ball towards them. Weird right? So I transformed into my invisible-ness and decided to try to find them. It was so weird...I could feel myself flying!

Anyways, I finally found one of the "dogs" in the woods. But it turns out he was a wolf. He could smell me but couldn't see me. Then somehow, I ended up getting bit by this wolf friend. And I cried. Then woke up.

I think I've had too much Sirius/Jacob Black on my mind.

Just voicing my opinions (aka FACTS)

Most people will not like this post. And that's quite alright with me. Everyone has an opinion and are entitled to it.

Opinion/Fact #1. My husband is awesome. I love him and he is my best friend. We have been together for 4 years, and married for 3. And throughout all of our struggles, financially & emotionally, we seem to have come out on top. We have grown up with each other. And it's because we put those precious little kids of ours FIRST. Whatever we do, we think of them. And it's because of those kids that we GREW UP.

Opinion/Fact #2. If I am not happy with something, I'm going to change it or change myself. Either way, something's gotta change.

For example, as of now, I'm changing myself. I'm always up for a good time. But that does not have to involve alcohol. I don't like what it does to people. I'm too old for all that LOL. (I'm only 22 for those who don't know...)

Opinion/Fact #3. Pick the people you team up with wisely. Especially if no one likes them to begin with. It will start more drama than you need. And more importantly, it's going to put a strain on a relationship/friendship.

Opinion/Fact #4. Replace the negativity with positivity. It will make life TONS happier. It's not easy at first, but once you start doing it, you can physically see your world getting better.

                                        

Opinion/Fact #5. You can't get something out of nothing. You can't sit around and expect things to happen. Get off your butt and do something about it.

Opinion/Fact #6. That saying "Live to please no one but yourself" is also bologna. Read it again.....yeah, sounds a little selfish doesn't it?

Opinion/Fact #7. Financial issues are the #1 cause of divorce. I can & can't see this. How can adults not be responsible with money? Or not share money with their spouse, even if just one of them is working? I just don't understand.

Opinion/Fact #8. Attention seeking is for 3 year olds. When you are adults, it's best to sit back and not voice your life on Facebook. Yes, everyone has bad days. But running up my newsfeed with negativity is ridiculous. Try this: when you get the urge to post something negative/attention seeking, just type it, and DELETE IT. Then, when you are feeling better, you won't look back and think "Eh, I probably shouldn't have posted that" because now you look like a doucher. :)

Opinion/Fact #9. I am awesome.

lol just kidding about #9 :)   But seriously, this post is going to raise some eyebrows.  Don't condemn me for my opinions because they are what they are.

Fall Love

We got some family pictures made yesterday afternoon. I thought we were going to blow away with the crazy wind we were having! But they turned out really good!

*sigh*

These are just a few of them. Blogger was being mean and wouldn't let me put anymore on here :( Maybe later. :)

Anywho. I've been thinking a lot lately. (I know, I know...don't hurt yourself, Lauren). I'm happy with my life. Yes, some things could be better. And they WILL! My husband works so hard for his family. He has a good, steady job (although I DO complain about the hours...it could be worse), and he's working his way up the company! I (God willing) will be starting school in January for teaching. I've decided that's what I want to do. Be a teacher. It will be best for my family and I know I will love doing it! And I will get to be creative everyday!! :)

The next 5 years are going to be a busy 5 years. We are working on bettering our credit score because we want to buy a house after I graduate. And I am SO excited about it! And I'm so proud of how we are handling it. Most people jump in and buy something that they can't afford in the first place. But we are taking the slow, yet productive route. My husband is so good at handling money. Well, we both are actually. I never buy anything without thinking it over 500 times lol. And if we don't have the money to do something this week, we don't do it. Point blank. We had it really rough when we first moved in together but we have come a LONG way and we always say that we will NEVER go back to living like that. I hate asking for help/money. Hate it. We are adults. It shouldn't be that way. So unless something major comes up (like a house fire......) I will try to never ask for financial help.

Next.

I know some of you have read where I'm going to start losing weight/getting into shape. Well, I'm starting today!! I made my own workout routine. I'm not really "dieting" per say. I'm just going to try to eat healthier when I can and cut back on sweets and sodas....Lord help me lol. I might hurt somebody for a Dr.Pepper.

Pinteresting Wednesday!!

 

My dream home! It doesn’t even have to be that huge…I just LOVE where it is!

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I love Pinterest…but now when I make something crafty, I don’t feel as awesome because everybody and their momma (literally) will know I made if from Pinterest LOL.

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I NEED THIS IN MY CLOSET RIGHT NOW!!  please :)

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When I pray…

 

When I pray, I pray for my children and my husband. I pray that God will watch over them and keep them safe from harm. I thank God for bringing them into my life. I thank God for the blessings he has given me, even though I need to do this more often. I pray for my family and friends and how I’m so blessed to have them. And I pray that God will help me be a better mother and wife.

But what I can’t pray for, what I feel I’m not worthy of praying for, is me. I feel like I am a lost cause. I don’t deserve the things that God has provided for me because I fall to temptations too easily. I always want to be better, but it’s so hard for me.  I can’t keep asking for forgiveness when I do the same wrong things over and over again.

And I’m still so confused with everything. I don’t know where I belong (as far as a church goes) and I don’t know nearly as much about the Bible as I should. When I do go to church, I feel ashamed. I feel that I am not worthy enough to stand in front of the cross.

I’m just going to continue to pray.

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Catch Up

Some pictures from Halloween-

Pretty sure I had the most handsome Sheriff in town, along with the most PURRRRRfect Kitty Cat. 

Yeah, I just did that =

Ready for the weekend!

Let me just start out by saying I LOVE Halloween! So to say I am excited for this weekend would be an understatement.

We bought the kids’ costumes at Wal-Mart. Kenzie is going to be a “cat” and Tucker is going to be a cowboy sheriff = Cute, huh??

Doug and I had to be creative. But that’s okay, I would rather be semi-original anyways lol.

Doug is going to go as Less Grosman off of Tropic Thunder. You know, Tom Cruise’s alter ego?

It’s pretty funny actually. 

Here are some hints as to what I’m going to be…

Figured it out yet? LOL  

 

LOL yup… Cookie Monster! Or at least, my own version of a cookie monster =

I even have blue eyelashes. I might even walk around with a box of Chips-Ahoy and violently eat them LOL!

We will be going to the yearly Halloween party Saturday night. It will be at my SIL’s this year.

She asked me to bring a dessert and I’m torn between cake balls and these heavenly goodies…

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Baked Smore’s……

Or maybe I will make both.. LOL! =

Oh, and I know this is super simple and you probably already know about it, BUT this is my drink of choice for parties.

#1) It’s super cheap.

#2) It’s super yummy.

Bull Frog

This is all the ingredients you need. Ever.

All you do is empty out the Mountain Dew to the top of the lable. Add Kool-Aid & shake until dissolved. (Be careful, it will fizz up. And this stuff can be MESSY!)

Once the Mountain Dew has settled down, add the Vodka to fill up the bottle again. Shake it a couple of times just to mix in the Vodka.

Pour on ice and enjoy your night =

When done right, you can’t taste the alcohol. This is a good and bad thing.

LOL!

I can’t wait to put up pics of our costumes!!!

Getting Started

Yayy for me. I’ve been sticking to a “diet” for about 4 days now = I’ve been cutting back on what I eat and I already feel better. I’m going to start exercising tomorrow.

I plan on weighing myself every Wednesday. It’s the middle of the week (duh) so I will be able to tell how much harder I need to work the rest of the week! 

Here are a few of my guides that I’ve pinned on my Get Motivated Pinterest board:

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One of my “bad habits” is sweet tea. I swear it’s my blood type. Hopefully, I can get to the point of maybe one glass a day. Or even better, none! I really need to drink more water.

So here’s to losing 60 pounds!! = Wish me luck!

Maybe I will get brave enough to post “result” pictures.

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Who I think I am…

this is my quote that pretty much sums it up

Who I Am: 

A damn good mother.

A loving wife

A book lover.

Sweet tea, Dr.Pepper, coffee addict.

Smart.

A best friend.

Who I Think I Am:

A big slob who stays at home all the time.

Shy.

Lost in the world.

Someone who will never figure out what to do with my life.

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All of my friends are going out this weekend. At first I didn’t want to go. Hubbs didn’t understand why. I tried using the “I’m tired” excuse, but he wasn’t buying that. Before I could open my mouth with another excuse he says, “If you don’t have anything to wear, I will buy you something.” Dang it. Can’t use that one either…

And then I just start crying. 

“I’m fat”.

………

Now, being the sweet husband (most of the time haha) that he is, he tries to calm me down. But in the process of that, he gets mad. He gets mad because he says I AM not fat, I’m just not as small as I used to be. And he tells me I am beautiful.

I’ve never really felt pretty except for when I was feeling pretty for the wrong reasons.

I was always so hard on myself for anything. My weight; my looks; my clothes. Even when I was a cheerleader, I always felt huge. And looking back now, I was NOT fat at ALL.

Then and Now

Obviously, I was retarded.

I’m still very hard on myself. I hate being in pictures. I hate looking in the mirror. I hate finding something to wear.

My self esteem is sad. Before I had kids, I loved meeting new people. I loved dancing. I loved going out. Now, I have to have a few (or 6) drinks before I hit the dance floor lol. 

Hubbs tells me that my idea of beauty is superficial. I get my ideal body from Victoria Secret models. He says that’s not real life. Not everyone CAN look like that and he doesn’t care if I ever look like that. He doesn’t put lies in my head though…he does tell me he knows I’m slightly overweight but I’m not HUGE like I think I am. 

But I’m not just gonna sit around and mope. I’m gonna do something about it. I’ve been cutting back on what I eat for the past couple of days. I feel better not eating a ton of food for dinner. Now if only I could get some energy & get over my hatred for sweat and start to exercise! I need to lose 60 pounds to be in a healthy BMI for my height. 

Has anyone else lost a significant amount of weight before? How did you do it? Any yummy healthy snacks or recipes?

Also, motivation tips would be nice. Me and chocolate have this thing…and I need to let go. LOL!

Potty Training

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I’ve decided to do something new.

Parenting topics.

And today will be……

dun dun dunnnnnnnnn.

Potty Training! Yayyyy! 

I stumbled upon this article from The Stir about potty training/using Pull-Ups and it gave me the idea to blog about it. 

Did/do you use Pull-ups during potty training?

Here’s MY* input. With my daughter, we started training her a little before her 2nd birthday but then we put if off until after my son was born. So she was probably about 26 months old when we started back. I’m not gonna lie, at first we used Pull-Ups. We also got her a little potty. Just a simple one. Not some fancy-smancy talking toilet lol. Does the big toilet talk to you? If so, you might need help that can not be obtained from this blog. =

Pull-ups are POINTLESS. Do NOT waste your money on them (unless you are using them for overnight accidents). All they are is decorated diapers. That are easily pulled down. 

Lameeeeee. They just want you're money.

Now, as a SAHM, the potty training was pretty easy now that I look back on it. After about a package or 2 of Pull-Ups, I finally realized they were not doing anything to help. We bought Kenzie her first pairs of “big girl panties”. Yes, panties. Cloth. Washable.

She loved them. “They look like Mommy’s”! Although …I certainly do NOT have Dora on my underwear LOL.

Yes, there were PLENTY of accidents. Mostly in the floor. (We finally got smart & didn’t let her on the couch until AFTER she had used the bathroom lol.)

Patience is a virtue in this stage.

When she had an accident in her panties, she was so embarrassed and sad. If she pooped in them, I threw them away. She didn’t like me throwing her pretty panties in the garbage. She also didn’t like that the pee ran down her legs lol. So after about a couple of weeks, she finally got the hang of it. She would know before she had to go, tell me, and I would help her on the BIG potty. She never even used the little potty lol.

  Long story short: Don’t buy Pull-Ups. If you are a SAHM, find the time (and most importantly, patience) to potty train your child without wasting money! =

PS – I’m SO dreading the day I have to potty train my son. LOL

*Notice, this is all MY OPINION. So don’t get your panties in a wad. lol PunPunPunPunPunnnnnn!

In my head.

So I have tons going on in my head. And I need to write them down. So here goes.

1. What am I going to do with my life? I’m going to school in the spring but I don’t even know what to go for. I’m against teaching because there just aren’t any jobs around here for it. I can’t handle blood & needles so there goes most anything medical. I was thinking going for a business degree & eventually opening up my own little boutique or something. But I’m so scared of failure that it pushes me away from pursuing anything like that. Maybe pharmacy tech? Idk…

2. I’m SO sick of renting houses. I want to do what I want to MY house when I want to do it without asking someone for permission. So, we are taking a good chunk of our taxes the next 5 or so years to put up for a down payment. We are also going to be working on getting our credit score higher. We want to build a house. Nothing fancy. But it will be exactly what we want it to be!

3. I’m going to be an owl for Halloween. Do you think that’s weird? lol. We go to a Halloween/costume party every year so it’s necessary that I wear something. And I want to do original. At first I was going to be a peacock, then my best informed me that pretty peacocks were males. Lame. So I decided on an owl! I love owls anyways. But this costume will NOT be drab, mind you. I’m going to make a tutu, a feathered mask, some cute leggings or tights, GLITTER GOLD SHOES, maybe some “wings”. Cute huh? I tried to get Doug to be a tree but he wouldn’t have it lol. So no couples costumes for us this year….or any year LOL.

Ok I guess that’s all the rambling for today. I’m so boring lately :(

Oh How Pinteresting Wednesday!

Linking up with The Vintage Apple, as usual, for Pinteresting Wednesday!

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And today is all about the fab outfits I need, er, I mean want in my closet! 

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Okay, I couldn’t NOT show this one…It cracks me up!!!

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I hope everyone has a wonderful Wednesday!! Thanks for stopping by! 

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