Is it horrible that, as a stay at home mother, I feel worthless?
I feel that even though I clean, do laundry, cook, give baths, etc, I'm not contributing to anything. Even if it makes more sense financially for me to stay home while I go to school, I still feel like in everyone else's eyes, I'm not good enough. Or I'm lazy for not working.
Well, if I could find a FULL TIME job that didn't only pay for daycare, then I would be jumping right on that. Believe me. But for now, until I get my career, I'm going to be a SAHM. Even if that means we can't have much or do much of anything. Even if that makes me feel like I'm a worn out old maid.
And it's not my kids. They aren't the problem. I love them more than the air I breathe. It's just the feeling of un-accomplishment.
I feel like an outsider to the world. I feel like I'm not doing what's best for my family, even though it is. I feel worthless. There's no other word to put it.
So for you SAHM's out there, what do you do for yourself to make you feel better? What do you do to feel like your being a SAHM means something?
*sigh* Maybe it's just me.